Friday, August 26, 2011

Good and Bad. Mostly Bad.



Oh, hi. Just though I'd do some updates here. Me? how am I? Well, not great. Not bad. Not great.

I've been plagued with some health problems and chronic pain. It looks like I have Trigeminal Neuralgia. I'm seeing doctors for it, so we'll see what's going on. Trigeminal Neuralgia is often described as the worst pains a human being can experience. Just imagine the feeling of being stabbed in the face with sharp electric jolts every second of your life and that's basically how I feel. Trigeminal Neuralgia has earned the name "The Suicide Disease" because so many living with the disorder end up killing themselves.

This explains the pain I live with.

Or here

And here's some happy reading.

Like many with TN, It started off as a "toothache" (around Jan. 2010). I've seen more doctors and dentists than I count on my fingers. First I got a root canal, than another, than drugs , than extraction, I've been going to the Orafacial Pain Clinic, then more drugs, then painkillers, then acupuncture... it goes on and on. Nothing is working. I've had to take on more commissions than I would like to because I am getting destroyed by medical bills. It's been really, really hard lately.

Do I have TN? I don't know, but all signs lead to yes so far. I'm getting an MRI today and I'm praying it gives me some information...all of it positive and good I hope.

Why tell you this? Mainly, to confess that the Funrama #2 comic I've been working on will probably be delayed for a while. I have all 32 pages drawn! Yeah! But I still have to script it, letter it, tone it and do a cover and I've just lost the energy and motivation for it. I haven't had much energy to make any art for the last few months. Also, I might have to take on more commissions. Maybe. Maybe not. I don't really want to, but I don't know. Not looking for pity here, and I definiteIy don't want any extra attention, it's just that I might need some commissions if things get bad. The good? I AM working on some new projects, trying to get them off the ground. Slowly but surely. I've been really slow but I hope to pick up some steam.

Sorry. So um, how are you? Great weather we're having! :)






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7 Comments:

Blogger Michael May said...

Crap, Ryan. I hope that's not what you've got and that whatever you do have is treatable. Wishing the best for you, man.

11:15 AM  
Blogger Holden said...

How much are your commissions?

1:36 PM  
Blogger Ted said...

I'll definitely want to grab a commission from you when you start taking them. One, because your art is fantastic, and two because I really want to help you out in this terrible situation. My prayers and best wishes with you.

4:20 PM  
Blogger Graphic Eye said...

Here's hoping the MRI gave you some good information. That was a lot of scary reading, but it looks as if there has been good results from radiotherapy treatments.

Hope things get better for you soon.

2:36 PM  
Blogger ross said...

i know i said it already but hang in there, man. i got my fingers totally crossed for you and that they'll figure out what this is and get you the right attention. things are gonna work out!!! <3

12:48 PM  
Blogger Kevin Bandt COnCepTs said...

Holy hell man. I am so sorry to hear this. I've only met you a couple of times but I will be sending as much positive energy your way as I can. I really hope that the MRI gave you some good news. I know the effect of chronic pain on people as it effects many people that I know. It's a real bitch. you are kick ass though and seem like a pretty tough dude. Good luck and again I will be sending tons of positive energy your way.

10:30 PM  
Blogger Stewart Cook said...

Hey Ryan, I'd love to help out putting Funrama together for you. I've been working in graphic design for about 16 years now and know my way around al the software etc. No charge of course, I'd do it for the love of your work and a foot in the door (so to speak). If you're interested feel free to contact me via email you can also see some of my work on my tumblr (both below)

stewartcook76@gmail.com
stewartcook.tumblr.com

Cheers and I hope you get some relief from TN soon.

8:36 PM  

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